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Post by Angelique Choisel on Oct 31, 2005 12:42:41 GMT
Why does the lance of depresion peirce me so.... « Thread Started on Oct 28, 2005, 7:46pm »
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-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Angelique was feeling very sad, sadder than usual. She decided to go to the little part of beach at the lake to clear her mind.She sat down and brushed her dress down over her soft cream colored feet, the wind blew hard for a moment and made her hair flow around her like a weak tornado. It was almost time for everyone to go to their common rooms but she couldn't go in there with such a sad face. Earlier in the day she had been cast out of a group discussion because the girls are jealous of her beauty. she thought "what is so beautiful about me? I don't see anything but a hopless romantic.." Angelique sighed and began to wonder why all of the guys she's dated had used her, cheated on her, or just broke her heart. That's why she can't see her true beauty. will you." All she could hope for is a prince charming to come.
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Post by Ace on Oct 31, 2005 16:24:12 GMT
Ace slipped out of the castle just after dusk had fallen. He had been having a hectic day, but had finally finished all the marking he had to do, sorted out the detentions he had assigned, and now just needed to escape from the busy hell of the staff room.
As he leaned against the stone wall of the castle, he looked out to the lake, which refleced the myriad of pinks and purples that shot through the sky. His eyes fell upon a figure sitting at the shore, and he frowned slightly.
Pushing himself off the wall, he walked over to the lonesome figure, and saw a beautiful girl who looked sad.
"It does make one wonder, what could possibly make a young thing so pretty as yourself look as sad as though she carries the world on her shoulders..." He smiled slightly and sat beside her.
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Post by Angelique Choisel on Oct 31, 2005 19:08:46 GMT
Angelique blushed as red as an apple and looked over at him.".....You can't possibly be talking about me..." She looks away from him.Angelique was highly self-concious, taking compliments was a hard thing to do. Seeing as the scum bags she's dated before never appreciated her beauty.
She thought "He said I was pretty....Is this really true? Or is it just this guy who admires my beauty so?" Angelique looked back over at him once more, trying to gather her words. She stared deeply into his eyes almost getting lost in them. Her nerves began twitching at the thought of her saying something stupid, she was afraid he would judge her. Or worse run off and never speak to her again.
Right now, she really needed someone to soothe her wounded heart from her emotional scars that cut so deeply. Through her heart and peircing her soul. She says to Ace "I, just have a lot on my mind. I didn't know how else to deal with 'things' except to distance myself from everyone else....I really feal like you stated, like the world is on my shoulders... I'd give anything to change that at this point.
I've tried talking to people to help but, I couldn't say a word without running off..." She looked down at the sands surrounding her feet then the wind blew again, this time every strand of her hair blew back and tapped against her shoulders. she got slight chills from the breeze then folded her arms as if she was hugging herself for warmth.
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Post by Ace on Nov 3, 2005 15:50:12 GMT
Ace listened to the girl. In truth all he had been hoping for was a quick flirt, but he reminded himself quite sternly that he was a teacher now and that such things were now quite below him, and that a student in need of a friendly ear was far more important than massaging his ego.
"Why do you run?" he asked, leaning back on his hands and fixing his piercing green eyes upon her. It seemed to him that this girl was one of those praradoxes, a beautiful girl who wished she was not so because all it ever gave her was trouble. "Why not just talk to someone and let them listen? I've been told that's what friends are for..."
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Post by Angelique Choisel on Nov 3, 2005 19:25:31 GMT
Angelique stood up and stared out at the endless lake.She made a look of anger then replied "Who would listen huh? All I am to people is new girl who thinks she's just too pretty and good for anybody or anything! And-And it's just not true okay!" She said getting upset as she looked down at Ace.
Angelique didn't mean to get upset like that, but all of this un-tammed anger was burning inside of her. A tear came rolling down her cheek looking like a crystal. She quickly wiped it away but then more came and she started to walk off, but something was telling her to stay. Just talk a little longer and maybe things would be all right, and maybe walking away from every problem isn't the way.
She stood there for a moment and felt like Ace was watching her, so she turned around. Now Ace was able to see her pain pouring out of her, and she didn't want that. This was something she would never forget, how she cried in front of a teacher! Angelique says".....I, don't know why I run. Maybe now it's just my instinct because I'm afraid of people getting close too me....And as we have this conversation, I've....Thought about things in a way I shouldn't, because I feel that they are wrong in so many ways."
Angelique approaches Ace again and stands a few steps away from him. She says "....If, I told you what I really wanted, more than anything in this world.....could you promise to keep it between us? I've never told anyone, I don't trust people so much anymore.But for some odd reason...I feel like I can Trust you....Can I?" She squatted down beside him and stared into his mysterious green eyes, searching for an answer and nearly peering into his soul.
The curious and questioning look stayed on her face and stuck like a stone statue. As Angelique stared, her heart began to beat fast, and it was strange to her because it's never happened before....She thought "No.....You can't possibly.....not so soon, you barely know this man Angelique! Further more, he's a teacher! At least wait for his answer......"
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Post by Ace on Nov 4, 2005 13:33:40 GMT
Ace looked at this pitiable figure of a girl, and felt himself melt towards her. Why, why did he have this thing inside him that felt instantly drawn to anyone in pain or despair? Why did he always want to play the part of the hero? He could sense that she was ashamed of her outburst, but he didn't see any reason for her to feel ashamed - surely it was much healthier to release your emotion somehow instead of keeping it locked up for centuries...
He looked into her pleading eyes and knew that she needed to talk - regardless of the barriers between a student and a teacher, and regardless of the barriers between human and vampire, this was necessary.
"You don't have to trust me to talk to me," said Ace seriously, knowing that her eyes were searching for his soul and were going to come up empty. "I won't breathe another word of this to anybody else, and I always keep my word. You don't have to trust me, but you can trust that. I think that you need to tell someone. What is it that you want, more than anything else in the world?"
Ace knew he was walking a fine line between letting her express herself and making her feel too scared to talk, so he fell silent and waited for her answer, knowing he would understand if she refused to say anything more.
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Post by Angelique Choisel on Nov 4, 2005 19:44:43 GMT
Angelique beats back the feeling of shame inside her and takes a deep breath.Angelique says "What I want....Is eternal happiness, and love.....All I ever wanted was the perfect companion that wouldn't leave me so emotionally wounded....And, for that person to be my best friend.....But I guess that sounds kind of stupid huh?" Angelique sat beside him and tossed her head back making her hair bounce off of her back.
she stared up at the sky and wished she could be up there, free...free from all this pain. She tilts her head back forward then she looked over at Ace. she says" When, my mother died, it was because she was trying to keep me safe...My father told me that we were in danger. A sorceress had come for them because my father didn't keep his part of their bargain. Which she was to give them good health during the time a certain illness was spreading, but in return, he had to kill his own father.My grandfather.
But he didn't....And on one freezing, rainy night, she came to our house and attaked...My mother made it out with me safely, but my father.....he stayed behind and tried fighting her off.I was only about a week old, she had me bundled up in a warm blanket so that I wouldn't get a cold, or something worse. She was able to find a safe house and left me in care of an elderly woman named nattie. As she left me, she was happy that I would be all right.
But she unfortunately got caught by the sorceress before she could get her slef to safety...And she killed her..." Angelique felt a terrible saddness fill her heart again...but she was glad to get that all out. she speaks again"That's why I don't like getting close to people....."
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Post by Ace on Nov 5, 2005 8:25:13 GMT
Ace listened in silence to what the girl had to say, but couldn't help the sigh that escaped his lips at the end of her story. She can't get close to anyone because it only gets them, not to mention her, hurt. A classic way to royally screw up your life, in other words.
"Listen..." Ace hesitated, realising he didn't even know her name. Maybe it was better that way. He had never seen her in a Potions class, so maybe this interaction wasn't as taboo as he thought. "Listen, you have to understand that your mother's death wasn't your fault - and if she left you with someone to try to escape, well... it sounds to me like she knew what the consequences might be, or she would have taken you with her. She'd want you to carry on."
Ace looked out across the lake. It was getting chilly, he could tell by the mist that hovered inches above the water, but he couldn't feel it. The shiver he had was of a different kind. Shaking it off, he looked at her again.
"There are people out there who want nothing more than to find the one person that can make them happy for the rest of their lives. You know, someone to share all of life's experiences with. But it's very rare. Most people aren't strong enough to be able to do that - they are weak, and scared, and reckless. But not you. I know you think that this dream is a weakness, but to me it seems like you are stronger than they could ever be. I admire your courage. Just don't stop looking."
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Post by Angelique Choisel on Nov 7, 2005 12:59:31 GMT
Angelique blushed heavily then smiled. "Thanks...Oh yeah, I meant to ask your name....I'm Angelique but, you can call me Angie, if you like....." The seemingly relieved girl started to feel a sense of joy, almost happiness from this person that she was able to talk to about her problems.
She looked over at Ace and smiled a radiant smile at him, hoping to recieve one back. She liked this person. But she knew what she desired could never be, and it was a great disappointment.
Maybe she didn't believe in 'love at first sight' but , the feeling she had in her stomach and heart wasn't her imagination. She felt a fluttering like feeling while she talked to them this whole time, she couldn't explain where it came from but she knew what it was.
Just out of curiosity, she wondered if they would ever talk again.Just because they were in school, doesn't always mean she'd see him all the time. He is a teacher after all. Angelique studied his pale and clear face and she notice something different about him, she saw no warmth or glow about his face that everyone has.
His pupils were different, they looked as if they were dialated and his hands, they were so pale yet perfect. Yes, a perfect pale is what they were. He also had long nails almost like claws. As she was discovering this she had to wonder, these findings piqued her curiosity. So she slowly eased her hand over his and felt the icy feeling of his hands.
Angelique immediately moved her hand away and looked at him with fear, his body is as cold as ice. Angelique says"I'm sorry I touched you, but I was just, curious....You're as cold as death...." She said with a concerned expression.
She didn't know what he would do to her next but she was sure it would be something that would change her from that point on. The sky started to get darker as it was almost time for the students to go to thier common rooms, But Angelique wouldn't go back until she got some kind of 'sign' that the kind of relationship that she and Ace had would be a great friendship. But blossom into something far more true than that, something fate had planned long before they existed.Angelique thought to herself
"I wonder, why have I come all this way through life to find myself pouring out my intermost intimates to this guy? Of all the men I could have met, and didn't....here he is and, he's actually listening to what I have to say to him. But why did it have to be you sir? A kind gentleman with an understanding nature, and such a flawless appearance? But, I want it to be, oh so much I do...But what would everyone say to this if they found out about something like that? I would have to leave the school and be alone again...Even worse, He might be asked to leave too.....I wouldn't want him to lose his job...But would I be making a mistake not to go for it?....
Angelique froze up at the conflicting thoughts that clouded her mind. she made a shocked kind of face and then looked away from Ace again, yet still waiting for his most anticipated answer.
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Post by Ace on Nov 8, 2005 8:35:46 GMT
Ace saw her face transformed by a smile - gone was the look of a wilted flower, her entire expression radiant and beaming. He couldn't help it, he laughed and smiled back. He saw a transgression of thought behind her shining eyes, and immediately alarm bells went off in his head.
Turning away from her smile, he was shocked to then feel her warm hand cover his icy cold one. He took in a deep breath.
"I'm sorry I touched you, but I was just, curious....You're as cold as death...."
Ace's turbulent gaze locked with hers. Did she not know what he was? He was so used to his reputation preceding him, he had not even questioned that Angelique did not know who he was... what he was. A Vampire. A Vampire teacher. He pulled away from her slightly, unnerved by her proximity.
"I'm sorry, I thought you knew..." he said, frowning at her. "I'm a... a Vampire. And the Potions Master at this school," he added, in case she didn't know. "My name is Ace, though. Call me Ace."
Ace let the silence fall around them. He was not used to having to tell people this, not since he'd first arrived at this school years and years ago, only then he had been a student... but it had never gone down well. Especially when he had been living in the Hufflepuff Common Room, and nobody had been willing to sleep in the same room as him, so he'd had to sleep on the couch in the main living area. Sighing again, he turned to Angelique.
"I hope that doesn't bother you. I think you're a very nice girl and I want you to know that you can come and talk to me, anytime." He smiled.
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Post by Angelique Choisel on Nov 8, 2005 19:04:05 GMT
Angelique just smiles again and says" No, it doesn't bother me at all. I just, wasn't expecting this.(Soft laughs) I can't imagine how you must feel now after I looked at you like some science experiment...I'm sorry.
"Angelique stands up and puts her hands behind her back shyly. "It's past time for me to be in my common room, would you mind walking me back to the Gryffindor common room?" She asked with much hope. What a joy it was to hold such a conversation with a stalion like Ace, further more a vampire.
Angelique always thought of vampires as ruthless murderers who had no remorse for anything bad they've done and they wouldn't understand the problems of a human.
She came to find out at this particular moment that Ace wasn't like that at all, he was the complete opposite. Just then, something piqued her curiosity again, this time she would be more respectful of her actions." So, before I leave this beach tonight, I want to know....Are you seeing anyone?...(clears her throat nervously.) If you don't want to tell me that's ok, umm, because I know you wouldn't want some mortal teen being nosey...But really! I-I-I just wanted to know more about you! Honest!" She said waving her hands in a 'don't get offended please' motion.
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Post by Ace on Nov 9, 2005 10:46:18 GMT
"Of course, milady," said Ace with a smile, jumping up and holding out his arm for her to take it. He was only playing, but he knew she would enjoy it. He was happily surprised at how well she took the fact that he was a Vampire, and even more surprised that even when she knew that, she still allowed him to walk her back to the Gryffindor Common Room.
But before they set off, she asked him if he was seeing anyone. Ace froze. He wasn't, but he didn't want to encourage her. He had only known her for a few moments in time, but he already felt he knew her, and he could tell that it didn't take a lot for her to fall for someone, especially if that someone suddenly came out of nowhere and acted like a perfect gentleman. He paused for a moment before speaking.
"No, I'm not seeing anyone. I don't find the Vampiresses around here see anything beyond their own vanity, and the mortals... well, I've only done that a few times before and it never works out well. You know those people I mentioned, who aren't strong enough to want to stick with one companion for all their lives?" He grinned ruefully. "Well, that's me. I'm a coward. I tried the committed relationship thing, it didn't work for me."
He cast his thoughts back over all the relationships he had had while at Magic Horizons. They had all burned out fast, like passion always did, and only embers and wreckage ever remained. It just wasn't worth it.
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Post by Angelique Choisel on Nov 9, 2005 16:22:17 GMT
Angelique gladly took his hand and smiled. "I'm sorry you had such horrible relationships here. Sounds something like my relationships, call it a coincidence but we have similar experiences you know?" Angelique thought to herself "Am I really letting his looks and kindness get to me? What if he really isn't the guy I think he is or hopping to be?"
They always burned out fast, like pasion always did...
Angelique hated to admit that but ti was true. She never really had any good commited relationships, they all ended in the most un reasonable ways. But what can a girl do you know? Angelique liked this Ace.she adored him.
Angelique was sure he'd run off the opposite way that she was standing if he knew that she liked him already. Angelique closes her eyes and sighs." I've been so stupid.I've been fooled too many times by a handsome face and good manners...Am I a bad judge of character? Or, am I just getting my hopes up too high? Maybe I should really consider the possibility that I may be the only one in this pathetic world who doesn't have a mate..."
She started wanting to consider staying away from the dating game for the rest of her troubled life, maybe she'd be better off. She was feeling desperate while she talked to Ace, maybe that's why her heart fooled her once again...
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Post by Ace on Nov 13, 2005 20:34:00 GMT
Ace smiled distantly at Angelique. She seemed happy one minute then sad the next, almost as much of a paradox as he was.
"It's not that much of a coincidence. This place..." He looked around at the castle's glowing stone walls. "It does things to you. I can never decide from one day to the next whether it's heaven or hell. Sometimes it's both."
Ace sighed and tried to smile at her - he needed to give her hope, even if the hope he spoke of was nowhere near him, and nor would it ever be.
"I don't know what to tell you - I've lived for several hundred years, and my life was only ever easy when I was alone, when I made my own decisions and answered to nobody. When I came here, I changed - I let people start to affect me. They crept inside my head and eventually, inside my heart. They crushed me. They wanted too much from me, needed too much, that I wasn't willing to give. Nobody accepted me for what I was - they saw somebody they wanted to see, and not just me. Imperfect and all."
He smiled fangedly. "So my advice for you now would be - enjoy this time while you can. Enjoy not being tied to somebody. Enjoy knowing what it is to fly. Because every time someone clips your wings, you lose more and more of yourself. Don't ever forget who you are."
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Post by Angelique Choisel on Nov 14, 2005 11:49:57 GMT
Angelique smiled at Ace and started to wonder why things happened the way they did for him, and her. Now that the two of them found each other, their hearts were too wounded to see what was right in front of them.
They shared the same pain, and that was what brought them together tonight. "I'm not asking you to forget everything that has happened to you over the years, because you could ask me the same thing. What I do want to ask is that you shouldn't push someone who cares away from you.Two wounded hearts can't make a whole healed one but I wouldn't be afraid to try."
She said looking at him with all seriousness."I just realized that I can see the bitterness in my heart from being emotionally scard. But I don't want that to stop me from loving someone else, no matter how impossible that love may seem...The reason I fall for someone so easily now is because I am used to that feeling of affection and tender touch. That's all I need, that's all I want..."
Angelique turns toward Ace and stares him straight in the eyes."If I was with you, all I would ask of you was to love me..That's all I'll ever need.But you don't have those feelings, right?" Angelique let go of Ace's arm and began walking off towards the school.
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