Confessions(invite only)

[Keelin Thomas]

Keelin stood at the by the ledge of the balcony. She sighed nevrously. She had sent a letter to Azrael saying to meet her here tonight. She had to tell him some thing very important. She said nervously again.

[Lord Azrael]

Azrael made his way purposefully up the stairs of the astronomy tower. It was quite an out of the way location, and made him wonder what pressing news for the Cabal brought the pair of them to this relatively secluded place.

Reaching the top of the tower, Azrael spotted Keelin, standing by the edge of the balcony and made to move towards her, "Good evening, Keelin, for what purpose have you summoned me to this place?"

[Keelin Thomas]

Keelin glupped as she hear Az. She turned around and smiled nervously. "Hey Az, Um, Your wondering what i called ya here for, right?" said Keelin as she chuckled nervously.

[Lord Azrael]

"Of course I am, what would you expect," he said, grinning as he spoke, "You called me up here unepectedly, I at first thought there was some sort of emergency." There was something strange about the way she looked at him, yet he couldn't quite put his finger on it, although it did not seem the look of impending peril, quite fortunately. Still, it quite intrigued him.

"I am currently all ears, what is it you called me up here for?" he asked in a friendly manner.

[Keelin Thomas]

Keelin took a deep breath. 'ok, Kee, it's now or never, you have to tell him, if you don't and you die, you will never get to tell him. thought Keelin as she took another deep breath. "Um, well it's not that much of a emergency, i just need to tell you something before the battle." said Keelin as she held her hands together to stop them from shaking.

[Lord Azrael]

Tell him something..............nothing of any major importance, or so it seemed, yet something urgent enough to call him out here alone.

"Go ahead, I'm listening," Azrael said, taking a single step closer to her.

[Keelin Thomas]

Keelin put her head down when he stepped closer. God, why was she so shy now? she never was, She had done something like this when she was younger and she was way shy then. Her face felt hot. Wonderful, now I'm blushing. thought keelin as she took a deep breath.

A small silence came between the two. Only the owls hooting could be heard for the time. Then she took a deep breath. Ok, It's now or never.

"Azrael, I want to tell you that I'm....... in love with you."

[Lord Azrael]

Azrael started coughing sporadically as soon as she had spoken, taken quite aback by what she had said. It had been, to him, quite unexpected and thrown him completly off guard. Taking a step back, retracing the strep he had only just moved foreward, he struggled to think of some way to reply.

"Ummm....." Azrael started, losing track of what he was saying. Clearing his throat loudly he began again, "Excuse me, but what exactly did you mean by that?" It was obvious what she meant, or at least seemed so to him, yet perhaps he was mistaken, there was always that chance that this was simply a large scale mix up.

[Keelin Thomas]

"I'm in love with you. Az, I know you know what i mean." said Keelin with a annoyed look. She was telling him her secret and he wasn't taking her seriously. "Azrael, you know some of us are going to die, I thought by tell you now, if i died it wouldn't be so bad." said Keelin looking down at the ground. She didn't want to think about anyone dieing. She didn't want to die or Azrael. If he died, she wouldn't know what to do.

[Lord Azrael]

"I am sorry, you just took me aback quite a bit," he said quickly, trying to make amends for his previous blunder of speech, "I can honestly admit it was something I had not expected in the least, although I very well should have."

He was trying to get around adressing what she had said directly, avoiding the main point of this conversation. It was quite plain that he was doing so, yet he still couldn't bring himself to say anything regarding such a topic at the moment, "If you are worried about the upcoming battle, then please, let me handle the worrying. You, along with the others who will be accompanying us, are my responsibility in the upcoming fight. I am the one who will make sure none of us die, don't even consider it as a possibility."

[Keelin Thomas]

"I'm not worried about the damn battle, Azrael, i can handle it myself. I'm not a child." said Keelin somewhat angryly. 'Damn him, why is he trying to get out of talking about what i said!' thought Keelin as her face showed her annoyance.

[Lord Azrael]

Ugh.......now I've gone and made her upset... He thought to himself, although it wouldn't due to just stand here staring blankly at her, he would have to respond somehow. "It's just, well......I...... ." he said, not knowing where he was going with this. Damn, you've got to say something... he told himself.

"It's just......well," he paused, at a momentary loss for words, "You see, I'm not sure there is any possibility for things to work out in a way you would want them. I am, after all, a teacher and you a student, not much can be done to change that." he tried to explain, "I am sorry, but that's just the way it is," he finished, sounding defeated.

[Keelin Thomas]

Keelin felt her heart break. Her chest hurt, like her heart did break. She felt her eyes started to string and her vision start to blurr. her bottom lips started to shake slightly and her shoulders started to shake along with her fist, which was now digging painfully into her palm. "Oh, so just because your a teacher means you can love someone?!" asked Keelin shouting slightly, trying to hide the fact that she was about to cry. "I don't F**king care if your a teacher or not!" shouted Keelin with her voice hiking at the end.

[Lord Azrael]

"Have you ever considered the differences in age? Don't you ever think it might be a bit strange?" Azrael replied defensively, not wanting to upset her any more than she already was yet still get his point across, although that might be a bit tough to manage.

He wanted to get out of this without having to bluntly tell her the truth. "I am sorry, from what I have seen, student/teacher realtionships just don't work. It simply isn't done. I really am sorry, however, if I have hurt your feeling, yet that is simply the way things are."

[Keelin Thomas]

Keelin felt her tears start. She felt her chest clutch, and her breath start to hitch as she breathed. She shut her eyes tear and clutched her fist together more. She felt a sharp pain in her palms and opened her hands. Her small, sharp nails had dug into her palms and they had broken the skin. She closed her eyes tight again and turned her head to the side.

"I know about the damn difference, Azrael. Don't you think I'm smart enough to think of that before i go telling you my feelings." said Keelin softly as she opened her eyes to let her few silent tears fall from her face.