Post-departure

[Hayzie]

I feel these four walls closing in
Face up against the glass
I'm looking out, hmmm
Is this my life I'm wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around

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So this was it. Fenris Fenrir was now not only a distant memory, he was not going to let what had happened that day fade into the background. No. He had now ruined her Christmas, too; let their new relationship out into the open, and maybe worst of all, humiliated and embaressed her.

Even Hayzie, definitely not the brightest spark in the fire, knew that the only way to turn what had happened around, to stop what had happened, was by turning back time, and that feat was impossible. No one could meddle with time. What was to be was to be, and Hayz wasn't going to meddle with that again. She had caused enough damage already.

Is this the bed I chose to make
It's greener pastures I'm thinking about
Hmm, wide open spaces far away

It definitely wasn't the way the blonde had chosen to deal with things. Both times she had been bitten, it hadn't been through choice. Resistance, yes, but never through choice. All she wanted was freedom; freedom away from any mystical beings, maybe even freedom from herself? Shaking her head furiously and swatting away the tears of.. anger? It had been a while since anger had been an emotion that had taken over, more than a while, in fact. However this occassion called for it.

Fenris had struck a pain that was too deep to be contained only by hurt. Anger was the way, the only way, the Head Girl knew how to deal with the kind of words he had spoken in the Hall.

He had ruined her Christmas.

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but not feel scared

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Some Gryffindor she had turned out to be. A mouse could have done a better job than Hayzie Roberts had. Heck, a frog showed more courage than she did the majority of the time. Admittedly at times this thought persuaded her more, but this time, nothing was there. Nothing but a black void. Had Fenris really done all of this to her? Had he resigned her to nothing more than a sobbing mess?

All with a few words?

Apparently so.

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare-back, care-free
Along the shore
If only that someone was me
Jumping head-first, head-long
Without a thought

Maybe it was time to make a change. Maybe it was time to become the girl Hayzie, and everyone else it seemed, wanted her to be. At that moment, she didn't seem able to stop the tears coursing down her cheeks. The blonde could hear Fenris both in her mind and heard the crashing noises from the Dance Hall and briefly considered going back; going back into the hall without any thought in the world, just jumping in to it and hoping for the best.

Hoping that maybe the wolf would reason...

That, the Gryffindor very much doubted.

To act and down the consequence
How I wish it could be that easy

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Easy... the one word that plagued Hayzie like lotuses lately. The easy way out was always the way that she took, rather than act how she wished to act, take the more difficult route sometimes, say what she wanted to say and accept the consequences rather than opting out, ducking out because of... of...

Cowardice?

The mere thought made Hayzie wince. It was true, she was a coward. The blonde had been told it before, and now she knew, knew as well as anyone who knew her really well would, that she was a coward.

And that single emotion... it had ruined her Christmas. Not Fenris. Not Xailyn. Not even the request her "Father" had made. Cowardice had ruined her Christmas.

But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

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Breaking free.

It was decided there and then as tears fell onto her green dress that her New Year's Resoulution would be to break free of the fences that surrounded her, escape the claustrophobic sensations that had greeted her with ever metre lately, and mostly, avoid Fenris Fenrir as much as possible.

Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind, I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses
Run with the wild horses

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Was the only way to escape to run? Was it the only way out? At that moment, it was the only thought in Hayzie's mind.

Run away.

But how could she? Where would she go? On top of those thoughts, absurd as it was, had there been a connection between herself and Sirese during that dance, or had it simply been due to the gratefulness that had almost burst from her in those few minutes?

Either way, it was as though they were Romeo and Juliet, but not quite. Fenris had practically denied them any form of relationship. Now, not only did he think he had control over Hayzie, a control which she was practically allowing him in order to take an easy way out from what had happened, he had also granted himself control over guys she liked?

I wanna run too
Recklessly emboundening myself before you
I wanna open up my heart
Tell him how I feel...

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She did want to tell him how she felt...without "Parental Supervision" Bringing her wheelchair to a halt midway down the long corridor the blonde had slowly been making her way down, Hayzie looked down at the floor, her hair curtaining her face. How had a mere few minutes hit her like that?

Suddenly, tiredness and despair seemed to take over the girl. It was going to be like this forever... and there was nothing she could do.

I wanna run with the wild horses

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[Sirese Prince]

How could he do that to her

Blood was slowly dripping down Sirese back as he ran after Hayzie, who seemed very fast for a girl in a chair. He was livid, Fenris had ruined everything tonight, him and his demon girl. As he ran after her his thoughts drifted to what would he say to her when he got there. He had heard fenris after all, claiming that Hayzie was a lycan, but something about that didn't fit something that nagged him in the back of his mind.

He could hear the sound of wheels ahead of him and knew he was getting closer. His body was still tingling from Fenris's claws but he ignored that. He knew he could mend the wound in a matter of seconds when he had the time to. He had more important things on his mind at the moment.

When he saw her stop he slowed down. As he approached her he ran threw what he was gonna say to her. He walked up to her, he could not see her face at the moment or her tears. "Hayzie.." He said softly to her. "I am sorry for what that man did in there, he had no right to treat you like that, your not a little girl and you do not belong to anyone." He said kindly to her trying to make her feel better.

"Hayzie I am so sorry this night went into the bucket." He said softly. "I wanted you to have a good Christmas." He said walking around the back of her wheelchair and kneeling in front of her to look her in the face. "Your a kind person, the first thoughts you had was to get your friends out of the room, that takes guts when confronting people like them." He said meaning how she had reacted to Fenris and Xailyn being there. "Is there anything I can do to help you Hayzie."

[Hayzie]

Hayzie had listened in silence up until now. Sirese didn't need to be sorry for what Fenris had done, yet she would be astounded if Fenris came out of the hall and apologised himself. Dumbfounded, too. Is there anything I can do to help you, Hayzie? he had asked. The only thing she could think of would help him more than it would help her, but Hayzie guessed the Slytherin wouldn't accept it if that was the case.

"Get down to the hospital wing and get your back looked at," the blonde almost muttered, not looking up at Sirese where he was kneeling in front of her, practically stopping her from going anywhere, stopping her from running.

The next words, Hayz really didn't want to say, really didn't.

But they needed to be said.

"And just... just leave me alone," her voice continued, choking more and more with every word she said. Hayzie hated people seeing her like this, it was very high on her hate list, but it couldn't be helped.

[Sirese Prince]

Sirese waited for a moment before speaking. He knew she wanted to feel sorry for herself and to keep him from getting hurt. She didn't know him very well at all, at least not yet. He just smiled happily at her for a moment. Sometimes that could get annoying and he had been told that a time or two.

He toke his wand and tapped it to the back of his cloak a bright green light flashed for a moment then vanished. "No need to, just toke care of it." He said pleasantly "Thats the spell I told you about, the one I could use on you." He said simply as if it were nothing big. He knew she would not be happy he had done that in front of her like that.

When she told him to go away he just looked at her. It was clear to him she was not a good lier. He smiled at her for a moment "I would if you really wanted me to." He said softly "Hayzie this is not the time to be alone, you want to feel apart from everyone but your not." He told her kindly "Your never alone, and you will never be alone with me around I can assure you of that."

[Hayzie]

ooc: Sorry for delay

bic: He just had to do it, didn't he? Hayzie looked away as Sirese healed himself and explained that it was the spell he had been planning to use on her. But would it work on something so big?

Glancing back, with no hint of emotion in her eyes despite the inner turmoil the blonde girl was experiencing, she sighed. "Do you think I want to be alone, Sirese? I don't want to feel apart from anyone else at all. I want to go and find my friends and make sure they're okay. I want things to go back to normal. I want to turn back time and bring my sister back. So don't go and tell me what you think I want. You don't even know me," Hayz ranted, regretting it almost instantly.

What had gotten into her lately?

[Sirese Prince]

He didn't speak for a moment, he could feel everything she felt the confusion and anger, whether at herself or him he didn't know. His eyes found hers as she finished up her little rant. He smiled at her gently and kindly "Do you want me to get angry with you is that why you try to anger me with your words." He smiled at her kindly "You don't know me either Hayzie I do not give up on people I care about so easily."

He pulled his wand from behind his back and held it at his side. "Hayzie you want ti all to go back, to turn back time so that nothing bad ever happened." He said softly repeating her words "I can not do that, no one can, but do you really want it?"

He ask her this for one reason because he knew she had become stronger threw it all, she had become the person in front of him today. "I can heal your legs here and now if that is what you want, you can walk again like before but I am sorry I can not give you anything else." He said softly to her "I would give you the world if I could, I would grant you ever wish you desired if it were in my power to give."