Farewell for now

[-Roan-]

OOC: This isnt just a thread for the sake of having a thread. I am going to be taking a break, dont know how long, of RPing Roan. She is leaving the school, I am not RPing. I find myself pouring out who I am into a character, and she comes out weak and disliked. Roan holds such a huge part of who I am, she is almost me IRL. I will not abandon my current threads, Ill see those through, and Ill be there for the Quidditch match, this thread is set after that. But no new threads, because people on this site are angering me, and the character itself is too. You may RP in this thread, Ill post in here too, but to an extent.

Soft footsteps clinked on the stone steps of the caslte as a small cloaked form exited the great doors. A carriage was waiting there for its passenger, ready to take her to the station where the Knight Bus ran. The form strode over to the carriage, placing a suitcase and broomstick inside. She turned and gazed back at the castle, tears forming in the hazel eyes. Roan was leaving Magic Horizons for a time. She wasnt sure when she would see the magestic castle again, but it would be no time soon. Struggling to tear her gaze from the castle, the Hufflepuff girl climbed into the carriage and shut the door. It was a stormy night, and it began to pour as the horse started off. 8:00 PM. Looking back at the school from the carriage door, Roan whispered her goodbye. "Farewell and stay safe, may no harm come to you."

The journey was not a long one, but it seemed like ages for Roan. About 5 minutes in, she began to cry and buried her head in her hands. The girl thought about the letters she sent out, how the people would have gotten them that morning. It was a painful thought to think of their faces, especially Rezna. Each word of the letter ran through her mind.

Dear Rezna,
I have not known you veyr long, but you are the closest thing to a friend I have here. Those past few weeks have been highly stressful and tense. So I have decided to take my leave of Magic Horizons for a time. The decision was hard, but necessary. I feel like I do not belong here, like I am not wanted, even hated by some. Every day is a struggle and i spainful. I must leave.You may wonder why Im telling you this, but I have my reasons. Someone has to know why I left, so they can tell others if they ask. I am leaving you are gift as well, my owl, Evaline. She is the one who delivered this letter. I have no use for her, and I thought you may enjoy having an owl. Please take good care of her. She knows where to find me if you wish to write. That day at the lake was not who I am, and I ask you not to judge me by it. I am a different person. The Knight Bus picks me up at 9:00 tonight, I will be gone and away from all these people. I have best wishes for you Rezna, stay safe my friend.
Sincerely,
Roan

The Hufflepuff was sobbing now. That letter had been on of the hardest things to write in her life. She didnt have any real friends, Rezna was as close as it got. The decision to give Evaline to her wasnt easy either. But she told the truth when she said she had no more use for the brown owl. Plus she wanted a bird at the school that knew where to find her. Roan couldnt keep the second letter from her mind. It was just as, if not more, painful than Rezna's. It was to the boy Aylen Hawkins, whom she called Sir Clumsy. The two had met twice, and still she did not know his name. But all the same, the letter was difficult.

Dear Sir Clumsy,
I fear I do not know your name yet, so I hope this owl finds you. A little while ago, I offered my servies against the menance Fenris Fenrir. The offer still tands, but must be postponed. I have decided to take leave of Magic Horizons. If you wish to know why, ask Miss Rezna. Though I am gone, I will continue to train so I know curses enough to stand my own against Fenris. If at any time you have need of me, send an owl and I will return quickly. I still wish to serve my school. I wish you the best of luck Sir Clumsy, please be safe. And thank you for the day in Hogsmeade, rarely do I get the chance to have such fun.

Sincerely,
-Roan

The carriage was still going as she thought about the klutzy boy. Roan still could not believe she met him. He was the most amusing person she had ever met. They had spent a day shopping in Hogsmeade, where she learned a bit more about enjoying herself. But she also remembered the spark in his eye as he spoke about Fenris. His determination to protect the school. He was an amazing person. The Hufflepuff couldnt admit to herself that she had a crush on him, though she did. The feelings she felt were there anyways. When will I see him again? Or Rezna? Will I ever see them again? When the time comes, can I bear to go back and face everyone? Each thought was frantic, and caused more tears to burst from her eyes. The future was uncertain as of this moment. In all truth, she didnt know if she was coming back at all. Roan had only told Rezna and Aylen that so they wouldnt worry. The carriage pulled to a halt, and she raised her head out of her hands. It was time. With a trembling hand she opened the door and pulled out her suitcase and broom. They were by a bus stop, and it was 8:30 PM. The Knight Bus was coming in a half an hour.

With slow, small strides Roan made her way to the bench near the sign. Her face was still running with tears, and was drawn with sorrow. The Hufflepuff loved her school with a fierce pride, if was a wretch to leave it. It was all her fault too. If she hadnt provoked Fenris, he wouldnt have attacked her. Both times. If she hadnt screamed at Ashlle, Forgoil wouldnt have scolded her. It was her own foolishness and emotion that betrayed her in the end. No good had come out of it. She felt alone and angry, but sorrowful at the same time. The Hufflepuff didnt want to return to her muggle home, she hated it. But some sacrafices had to be made for a moment's peace. Still crying, her eyes were set forward, breaths coming out in short gasps. The time of Roan's leave was soon, and she felt so alone.

[Jade Starr]

OOC: I hope it's all right if I post here... I don't really post IC anymore, but I hate to see a heartfelt post go unanswered. Sorry if it isn't as good s you hoped.

IC: A hummed chorus of 'Joy to the World' drifted along on the evening air. Moments after the sound became audible, the culprit appeared around a bend in the road. The faerie seemed completely oblivious to anything else as she sauntered along. The girl wasn't immediately recognizable as a faerie, however, unless one paid attention to delicate, faerie-like features. She was travelling incognito for the time being, which meant no wings.

Jade's apparent unawareness was just a facade; she was, in actuality, very aware of everything going on around her. She had been one of the first true empaths at MH, and she still had that gift in abundance. She could feel the girl from quite a distance away. Determined not to snoop, Jade continued humming as she came nearer and nearer to the bench.

Her steps slowed as she came to the end of the song and closer to the bench. The last held out note faded away as she stopped next to the girl and sat down. Jade was familiar with this bench, having sat on it many, many times. She had been born with a yearning to see everything there was to see. After letting the silence draw out for a heartbeat or two, she smiled at the girl.

"Hello, there. I'm Jade, and I'm just a wanderer. I'm sorry to interrupt your thoughts, but they seemed to be making you quite sad. I don't suppose a complete stranger could be of any help?" Jade asked, a small, encouraging smile on her face. Her eyes were sympathetic, but not patronizingly so. She was a fool for people in trouble or people who were sad. She'd do anything to alleviate someone else's suffering.

[-Roan-]

OOC: No, its fine, I was actually hoping for a chance to RP this thread, I worked hard on it.

BIC: Roan hadnt noticed Jade until she was sitting next to the girl. Mild surprise caused her to wipe the tears from her eyes and turn to face her. Never before had she met this person, but it seemed she was meeting a lot of people these days. Her presence was calming, and Roan welcomed it. Only one other person had been able to calm her in a state like this, and that was Luka, a faerie. Jade reminded her of the violet eyed person who had saved her from the library, her first blunder in the school. But right now the Hufflepuff couldnt say any words in response, all she could do was flash a small smile and nod. Roan didnt want to influence her sorrow on another person.

But after a few moments she regained her voice, able to speak in soft hushed tones that quavered. "You were correct miss, I am quite sad. Wouldnt someone be sad who knew they had to leave their home?" Her voice was barely audible. Right now she had no wish to really speak, she just wanted to see people. To catch a glimpse of Rezna's comforting smile, to see Aylen's bright red hair, even see Luka again. To have one of them walk up and say goodbye. To make her feel less unwanted here at this school. Jade was kind, Roan could feel that through her many layers of anger and sorrow. But it was going to take a moment to accept that.

Her hazel eyes full of emotion turned towards the faerie. "Im sorry Miss, I dont mean to burden another person with my problems. Its too much for me to handle without knowing I hurt someone else with carelessness. I dont know what anyone can do for me." Once again her voice quavered, and she wrapped her arms around her torso. Roan could feel an oncoming headache from crying, and knew the time would approach sometime in the next half our that her leave would come. But would anyone else come to see her before that. Was Roan's point going to be proven, that she was unwanted and didnt belong. Of course, she had met Jade now, but Jade didnt know why she was there. Holding a small hand out that was shaking a bit, the Hufflepuff managed a whisper. "Im Roan miss."

[Carmen]

(Ooc: I hope you don't mind if I join...)

What on earth? Why was there a bad feeling in the gut of the Australian girl as she sat watching Wyl and Forgoil play wizard's chess, when she was really finally beginning to understand it? Was it because the chess pieces were so brutal with eachother? That couldn't be it. The girl frowned down on the pieces, who in turn ignored her. It didn't matter though, she wasn't focusing on them. What was it? A tug? A deep feeling of damnedness?

Why was she feeling it?

Letting her instincts control her feet, the girl stepped away from the two boys to step up the stairs to her dorm. Once the girl had her cloak pulled on tight - you could never be too cautious with the snowy weather - she bustled down the stairs, whilst staring befuddled at her feet. They lead her through the door and out from behind the book-case where the house was hidden, and out onto the ground floor of the castle.

Running. That's what she was doing, letting her long blue hair bustle behind her in the cold wind that bit at her cheeks, turning them a rosey colour. "What the...?" she muttered as her feet sped up. Around a half an hour later, the girl finally slowed down, and almost collapsed onto the cobble-stoned road out of exhaustedness. Never had she run more in her life, but what was so important, she wondered, and almost demanded?

There were, upon closer inspection, two girls, one with wings, and one that looked very familiar. It was the girl with the amazingly yummy smelling french bread. But what was she doing here, of all places? Slowly, tentatively, the girl stepped closer, and eventually stood behind the chairs they were sitting on. "Hey, what's the matter?" she asked, hopefully not intruding.

[-Roan-]

Roan jumped when she realized yet another person had joined them. But something in her was alight with a bit of hope when she saw it was Carmen. Someone she knew. The two had only met briefly before, but still, it was someone familiar. Pushing back a few locks of her brown hair she flashed a shaky smile at the blue haired girl. It was brief, only there for a second. That was how long she could manage to hold it. "Hello Carmen." Her voice quavered, but it wasnt something the brunette could manage or control. She had asked what was wrong, but it was hard to bring the words up. But all in all, she felt more comftorable speaking to someone she knew.

"Im leaving the school." She said it plain and simple, her eyes full of their sorrow. This was harder than she thought. "I cant handle some of the people there, I cant handle what the school is making me into, what I am becoming. Right now I think it for the best if I left for a time, removed myself from the bad influence on my person." Roan's voice wouldnt have supported her words, they were choked with sadness. Tears still streamed down her face, giving her usually fair skin steaks. Wiping the tears from her eyes, the 'puff girl sniffled and tried to regain any sense of emotional balance. "Im sorry Carmen, I dont mean to burden anyone with this, really I dont, but, its hard to know Im leaving."

It was even harder to know that still nobody who she truly cared about, though she did care about Carmen, hadnt shown up. That her passing would be observed by a girl whom she had met only a few times and someone totally new. Though the blue haired girl's precense was calming, Roan still couldnt find any peace in the moment. It was all like an ocean of water running over her, something she couldnt control. She found herself already missing her bed in the common room, the feeling of the wind on her face as she rode her broom. The work she was doing for Aylen and the other students. All she had given up because of the emotions she couldnt handle. "Right now I wonder if its worth leaving for, is it really leaving all this behind. But then Im reminded of all the anger and inferiority Im feeling, and for a moment it does seem worth it. And here I am, minutes from my passing and I still cant decide."

OOC: Oh dear, my posts are getting worse here >.<

[Carmen]

(OOc: Worse? WORSE? WoRsE? wOrSe?! If they are WORSE, what are mine?! >.< In all truth I envy you in your posting abilities.)

The quivering smile was enough that the girl could have said. She was insecure, really, which made Carmen herself feel the need to protect her. But how could she? The two had hardly met briefly, despite the strong feeling of a little bond from Carmen to Roan. The smile lasted but a moment, which indeed was a sad time, because it was enough to show how much emotional pain she was in. Enough to spell it out, more or less. The details, of course, however, were shadey until she explained.

Still standing behind the bench the two girls were sitting on, she glanced between the two, soaking up the information the girl had said (after handing a friendly smile toward the Faerie). She had already been resting her head on her hands whilst her elbows were supporting the two on the back of the bench, but increased the distance between the two elbows, interwove her fingers from each hand with eachother, and rested her chin on that. Her face was proportionally positioned between the two girls' own.

After around a minute of silence from Carmen, she breathed a heavy sigh and finally spoke, her Australian accent heavy on her words. "Roan, I really can't say much, not having been there to see what happened. But I really wish you would reconsider. Have you really given the school enough time to let you mark it?" Though it was a question, it was rhetorical. After a pause, she continued shortly. "I've only once seen you in the common room, sadly." Carmen really didn't want to delve into what happened to the girl, because she knew it would make Roan feel awkward, so she didn't press the subject.

"But if you really think it's the right answer, to leave the school and it's magic, then no one can ever go against your judgement. It's yours and only yours that matters, no one elses." Though she was itching and craving to introduce herself to the kind Faerie that met up with Roan, now really wasn't the right time at all. An aquaintance, if not a friend, needed her help, along with the Faerie's. But what more could Carmen do?

[Jade Starr]

OOC: Sorry, sorry, sorry. >< School...hours of school work, and tests, tests, and more tests. I don't even know if either of you are still posting, but I don't like leaving threads unfinished, and I felt bad for not replying.

IC: Jade's eyes were still shining with different emotions. She had never been one to hide her reaction, because it was almost never negative. "You wouldn't be burdening me at all. If I didn't want to be involved, I would've been surly and uncommunative when I sat down." She nodded once in emphasis.

Although Jade's nature didn't actually allow her to ignore someone who was suffering. She stopped herself from shifting guiltily. Her emotions were always far too self-evident in her behaviors. True, she had the 'gifts' from her mother, but it was her own decision on how to use them. Several empaths/telepaths couldn't deal with it, and went into seclusion. Jade was overly self-conscious of everything she did, and she couldn't just pass by someone who needed anything. Even if she wasn't needed, which might be the case here. She hadn't met Roan before, because she hadn't stayed in the school in months. There had been an absolute horde of new arrivals, the departures of some of her best friends...She just hadn't felt she was needed. So she took to traveling and helping people she met that way. Of course, the fearie would always love MH, but most of what she loved was now just a closely-held memory. Not being one to usually linger on the unchangeable past, Jade was nearly ready to return to hanging around the school. Surely there must be some people she would be friends with. Although she could survive on her own in contentment, she really did like being with friends. Maybe this would be her start, although she had indeed intended to board the Knight Bus when it came. She gave herself a mental shake to bring her attention back to the situation at hand.

She smiled at the blue-haired arrival, whose name was apparently Carmen. The blonde inclined her head slightly at the other girl, fully understanding it wasn't precisely the time. She still didn't know what exactly it was she was here for, but she was here for Roan nonetheless.