Fenris Fenrir
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Post by Fenris Fenrir on Oct 19, 2005 2:41:29 GMT
With a grunt at Xavier's comments, Fenris turned into his wolven form after a few minutes of bones poping and features changing but it was not long before Fenrir had raced after Xavier's scent and that led him to a clearing. This part of the Forest was one that Fenris never had visited before; filled with new scents that exploded with fragrance in his nostrils as he breathed in. What part of the wood this was Fenris would have to come back at a later time and see what lay dormant in this area of the Forest. But now was not the time to be adventurous; now he was here to listen to what Xavier had to say.
But first there was something that he needed to tell the other lycan before Xavier told him what he needed to say. "The wrongs that I wish to fix are between only you and I; not between the Tunnels; not between the school, just the two of us. I know that you never have really liked me nor never would fully accept me for what I am and how I think, yet even though what I do seems to darken our name; in the end there are much greater goals to be gained. Goals that you might not approve of but you are not in control of me, Xavier of the Tunnels and yet you would still try to tell me otherwise", said Fenris.
"You would try to tell me another way to get around these problems"
"That is what I have realized about you after our last meeting; despite what ever the Tunnels will try to do to me in the long run, there is still the chance that I will see pity in your eyes; pity for my tortured soul."
Yet I am not here to take your time. You said that you had something that you wanted to tell me in private? Then tell your great-grand son, Fenris Fenrir, and let us get it over with. For I do not trust your friend any more than he trusts me. I worry about what he might do in my absence. So speak."
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Post by Fenris Fenrir on Nov 12, 2005 13:52:19 GMT
ooc: *pokes Xavier with a pencil*
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Post by Carmen on Nov 12, 2005 22:54:40 GMT
(OOc: *Laughs* *pulls out Wyl's orange crayon* *scribbles over Fen Fen* *scuttles off* *leaves behind a spiffy blue card with white writing*)
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Xavier
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Post by Xavier on Nov 20, 2005 6:34:14 GMT
OOC: Okay, I think I'm stable enough to post now. *laughs* Let us continue, Fenris.
IC:
Xavier removed the lint from his pant leg and flicked it into the air just as Fenris approached. The Lycan's orange eyes looked up into the black, star-filled sky and sighed, then returned to view the forest around him. He stood up straight and approached the other Lycan as he continued to speak. As Fenris finished, Xavier began.
"Fenris, my great-great grandson that you are. I have never truly accepted you for who you are and how you came to be. I have never really seen who you are, for that matter. Recent events have come about that have forced me to...rethink...my views and opinions of this world. I realize now that the humans that I try so hard to protect will never truly appreciate how unique our kind is. They fear us for who we are and for the power that we possess. Power that they could never attain, at least by natural means anyway. I may not be around much longer, so I think I'd better get this out."
Xavier cleared his throat just to make sure Fenris could hear him clearly.
"Fenris, I'm sorry. Sorry for everything I've ever done to you, going as far back as when I first met you. I'm sorry for everything I've ever thought about you, for all the negative feelings I've had towards you. I guess the only way I can explain it is that after I lost Sealla - my Sealla - to you, I became extremely jealous. Sealla should have died in the Tunnels long before you met her, but that chance at freedom was taken away from her by forces out of my control. She lived as another person; another being from the one that I had fallen in love with so long ago. Then that night when she kissed you in the forest - the old you - I lost it. I hated you for that. I hated her, too, but I knew that what they had done to her had made her a different Sealla. Then, when my granddaughter bit you and you change, I felt my anger disappear. You were to live the same life that I had come to know. I thought that would satisfy me. Only it didn't. I've come to realize now that I can never get Sealla back, and the Sealla that you have come to find yourself with is one beyond my control altogether."
Xavier took a deep breath and reached into his pocket and pulled out something small. Something glittering and shining in the moonlight. He held it up so that Fenris could see it, too.
"This is the wedding band I gave Sealla when I proposed to her. It was meant to symbolize our unity. Orange and silver with blue and black. However, I've come to hold it as a symbol of the times that we shared together. I know this must sound really sappy to you, but I thought you should know. Sealla would have wanted me to move on with my life, but I refused to do so. I thought if I hoped and prayed, she would return to me, but she never did. At least, not until tonight."
Xavier pocketed the ring again and looked back at Fenris.
"Fenris, the problems that you wish to fix never existed. They were just figments. Figments of our dislike for each other causing us to see what we wanted to see. You and I are family, and I should treat you as such. Whatever you choose to do with your life is not of my concern, so I'll just stay out of it. But as family, I do wish for the best for you and for the Lycans as a whole. All I ask is that you do not disgrace the reputation that I have tried so hard to maintain."
There it was. Xavier had just ripped open his soul and let Fenris stick his head inside to peek around. He hoped that his plan worked.
"Again, I'm sorry," the flame-eyed Lycan repeated.
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Fenris Fenrir
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Post by Fenris Fenrir on Nov 20, 2005 7:40:10 GMT
No...Xavier couldn't have said that...after everything that he had done to Fenris...now he said that he was sorry that he had done these things to him?
Those words immediately caught Fenris offguard and he visibly staggered backward until his back was pressed against the back of a young rowan tree. Xavier was one of the tormentors; he had done a small majority of the harm that had befallen on the abomination; him and Kage. Together those two had plagued his earlier life as Richard Rutherford and then they had to plague his tortured life as Fenris Fenrir. All their acts of cruelity flashed past his eyes in a matter of seconds. From when Kage first broke Fenrir's cheek with a kick, when Xavier harmed him in the middle of his first transformation, and when Kage had fought with him in the Forbidden Forest over Xavier's word.
All these things had affected Fenris; his mind was not what it might have been had not they mentally scar him with some of their past words and his body always healed so there was no need for him to try and argue that they didn't harm his body because they did. But now, nothing hurt; he just felt empty and cold as if all life had been snatched away by those words. It was true then; Xavier had forgiven his great, great-grandson when it seemed like he never would for as long as he lived.
"Xavier...I...great, great grandfather...I don't know what to say. But I only ask that you forgive me for my actions as well. Those times in the Forest, with Cealla and Alissa, please forgive for almost killing them and threatening to do so no matter what you did. Please forgive me for being what I am; I cannot stop myself when that primitive madness boils into action. Forgive me...for ruining the name of the lycans; I will try better in the future, though I cannot promise it will be as you see it now; for I still despise the humans with such resolve I doubt that anything would be able to quelch the fires of that passionate hatred."
Slowly staggering forward and with the child-like Fenrir, the one that craved someone to love him, breaking out into the world, Fenris Fenrir moved so that he stood right in front of Xavier and it wasn't long before Fenris enveloped his great, great grand father in an embrace and the large lycan began to openly weep on Xavier's shoulder. At last; he had been accepted by Xavier; at last there was someone other than his mother that was part of his family that accepted the madman as a relative.
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Xavier
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Post by Xavier on Nov 22, 2005 5:46:01 GMT
It worked...it actually worked. Xavier couldn't believe it himself. The moment that Fenris staggered back Xavier had known that he'd pushed the right button, but he had no idea that the mighty Lycan would act as he did. Xavier watched as time seemed to slow down. Fenris...seemed to change. He lost his aggressive, rough-around-the-edges look and suddenly changed. His eyes widened, his expression seemed to soften. Then the fiercest warrior among Lycans collapsed on Xavier's shoulder. The Lycan's muscular frame slammed down on Xavier's shoulder and he had to take a step back to keep himself from falling over. The flame-eyed Lycan simply stood as Fenris let out his inner self - the calmer, more tranquil him. Xavier wrapped his arms around his decendant and shushed him quietly. He spoke in a whisper.
"Shh...calm down, Fenris. I forgive you for everything. Everything you've ever done to any of us. Your life has been far from easy and I accept that. That is partially my fault. I should have been there to shelter you when you were dealing with the most painful part of your life. Instead I hurt you, forced you out - just because my jealousy was blinding me from the truth. When I lost Sealla I couldn't see things in the proper light. Now that my woes have been quieted I see that Sealla would want me to take you in, to be the son that I could never have otherwise. It is true that I have Sean but...he is not destined to follow in my footsteps. I love him so much. He is my son. However, so are you. I should have taken you under my wing from the start and helped to quell that horrible beast that dwells inside your heart. I forgive you, Fenris, but I also ask you to forgive me. Forgive me for not being who I should have been. Forgive me for pushing you away when I should have pulled you in."
Xavier lifted Fenris off of his shoulder and looked at the larger Lycan with soft, understanding eyes. Such power and tenacity flowed through Fenris' very self, and yet it had vanished in an instant.
"Fenris, my boy, I shall never leave you alone for yourself again. You can always find me when you need me. I made a mistake early in your life, but I shall not repeat it."
Then Xavier enveloped Fenris in another embrace, then stopped and placed his hands on Fenris' shoulders.
"I think it's time that we put aside our differences and walk together as family. Don't you?" he said with a smile.
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