Dante Rose Black
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Post by Dante Rose Black on Aug 16, 2005 2:31:16 GMT
The ground seemed so far away, but in reality it was much closer. But what did that matter what did reality have to do with it anymore, everything was falling down around her and it wasgetting to be to much. The razor in her hand and the distance to the ground seemed to be suddenly much easier options than living her day to day life. If living was what you could call it. "Maybe no one would really miss of I were to leave, maybe they really wouldn't care." She whispered this to the gathering thunder clouds who seemed to growl a response. She looked out toward the dark lake was it cold the time of year and what of its inhabitants what were they doing would they care if she just jumped in. She didn't know the answeres to these questions but she did know that hope for her life was nothing more than a fleeting image.
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Post by Ondrea on Aug 16, 2005 3:28:23 GMT
Ondrea made her way up the tallest tower of the castle, the astronomy tower, which happened to be one of her favourite places. Once there, she noticed a girl, who had a razor in her hand, without thinking she charged towards the girl, ripping the razor from her hand.
"Don't you dare think of doing that! What is the point? You will just leave other people miserable, and that wouldn't be nice would it." Ondrea said, eyeing the razor, she had to throw it down at the lake quick, or else her temptations might just take over her.
A tear tried to make its' way out of her eye, and she walked over to a window, and chucked the razor at the lake, "Sorry." she said quietly, her cheeks red, and she looked at the girl with worried eyes.
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Post by Dante Rose Black on Aug 16, 2005 23:45:10 GMT
Dante stared blankly at the girl at first then her mind took over. "I-I'm sorry if I worried you, but um would you mind giving me back my razor it was the one my mother AND father killed themselves with........ what other people theres no one down there that cares if I die, oh and I'm sorry if I took your spot I like to come here to think and stuff like that." Dante noticed the tear the girl had silently shed. "Are you ok you don't look to happy, but you look like a person who deserves all the happiness in the world?" Dante said sincerely.
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Post by Ondrea on Aug 17, 2005 0:17:52 GMT
Ondrea stared at the girl as if she was crazy, "You think I am really going to give you back that razor, well then you are crazy, I am not going to let someone kill themselves, it is not worth it, things always get worse before ever getting better. Trust me on that one, I should know. Also I am sure if you were gone someone would care, and God would care, he never leaves you, and it would upset to you falling, and letting go, when he so generously gave you life. Please don't do this, I know it is so tempting, but you can't. It is one of the most selfish things that a person can do, and it doesn't seem like you are a selfish person." Ondrea said quietly.
"Don't worry about taking my spot, you need to think right now, you definately need to think. I would offer to leave you alone, but at the moment I don't trust you with your own life."
"I am never really happy, the things that make me happy are when I make a difference, and if you go and kill yourself, that is not going to make me happy what so ever." Ondrea said plainly.
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Post by Dante Rose Black on Aug 18, 2005 1:03:50 GMT
"You really are a strange person and so I guess I'm not getting my razor back well I guess there are worse losses in the world if you get what I mean." Dante looked back out the window to the now light drizzle falling around the castle. "So if you make a difference your happy I've never made a difference before... my dear friend I don't trust me with my own life, but theres never really been anyone nice enough to care about that." Dante smiled at the girl as she took her seat again in the window sill. "So what do you know about anting to end it all?"
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Post by Ondrea on Aug 18, 2005 1:27:53 GMT
"Yep, I know I am weird, but aren't we all? So really it is weird to be normal." Ondrea stated smiling, "And nope, you won't be any time soon, that razor is just a bad memory, a memory that I wish you would never be reminded of again, but I know no matter what you will be..."
"Well yes, I am happy when I make a difference, and you will make a difference in my life, if I don't find you dead." she said plainly, "I am sure you have made a difference in someones life, even if they didn't tell you, which was obviously a big mistake in their part."
"And what do I know about wanting to end it all, well a lot. I have seen it where I lived... on the streets, I have tried it so many times, I am constantly thinking of ending my life, making me happy for once, some people in family have killed themselves, others or always trying to. It seems like we have all been weakened, or just-" Ondrea sighed, "The world has gotten worse, because a lot of people want to kill themselves, and leave this stupid, terrible, hell of a bloody world." Ondrea said growing angry at the thought of the world.
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Post by Dante Rose Black on Aug 18, 2005 1:37:45 GMT
"Yeah you know I've always wanted to get rid of that razor but every time I tried I couldn't, it was like there was somthing keeping me to it so I guess I should thank you for taking it away you can get rid of it if you want to." Dante smiled. "Its kinda hard to beleive you could be unhappy you look so fun loving and your really nice." She liked this girl but it was then she relized that she didn't know her name. "Oh by the way I'm Dante Black who are you?" She asked abit sheepishly.
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Post by Ondrea on Aug 18, 2005 3:32:56 GMT
"Ha, I forgot to introduce myself!" Ondrea said, "I am Ondrea, nice to meet you Dante."
"However you must know something, looks are very decieving, I put on a smile, and it looks like I am happy, but trust me, death seems so much easier then life does, and I am hurt, my heart seems to have broken into pieces a long time ago." Ondrea said, holding in any tears that wanted to come out, "But now, is not time for me, it is about you."
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Post by Dante Rose Black on Aug 20, 2005 4:28:44 GMT
"My time never seems to exist, and I do know looks are decieving for my whole life is a facade." She looked at the rain as it fell silently. "You know to hold in tears only causes more later." She told her, as she herself knew. "Pain is to be shared, but is rare that you find someone to share it with."
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Post by Ondrea on Aug 20, 2005 5:36:29 GMT
Ondrea looked at Dante, "I like to help people, because I can understand where they have come from, and because I can be trusted; however I do not want to burden them with my problems." Ondrea said, "So do you want to sit and talk, or do you want to go for a walk?"
Ondrea stood up, took a deep breath, and walked over to a nearby garbage can, eyeing the razor, her hand shaking as she looked. Closing her eyes, she continued to walk to the garbage can, and quickly threw the razor into the garbage, as if it were a disgusting bug, and she quickly returned to her place, "Phew." she said quietly, looking at her shaking wrist, "Glad that is over." she muttered quietly under her breath.
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Post by Dante Rose Black on Aug 21, 2005 2:18:14 GMT
"Lets go walk by the lake its nice there." Dante watched as Ondrea threw the razor away, it was like she was so tempted. "Well if you really want to know, I've just found out my parents are dead, well I've never really know them, but I've spent my whole life looking for them, and to find out that they're dead, and that they never really cared."
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Post by Ondrea on Aug 21, 2005 6:07:37 GMT
Ondrea nodded, "The lake seems like it is always a welcomeing place."
When Dante spoke, Ondrea felt bad for her, "I am sorry for your loss, but your parents are the ones who have suffered the ultimate loss, losing a kid who was perfect. You will always have a home, here, and your friends will probably do their best to make you their family." Ondrea said, "I can not say that my mom didn't care, but my dad didn't, that is why..." Ondrea trailed off, she always felt bad to talk badly about her family, "Well my parents are dead, too."
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Post by Dante Rose Black on Aug 23, 2005 2:08:11 GMT
"I'm sorry about that, did you any brothers or sisters I didn't though I would have liked some." Dante opened the door to let the other girl though. "I'm always told that parents can help or hinder you is that true?"
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Post by Ondrea on Aug 27, 2005 2:07:19 GMT
Ondrea looked at Dante, the memory of her dead sister and brother struck her like a knife, "Yep, I did, one of them is still alive. She is here at MH, Aira, do you know her? Oh, and siblings, they can be fun, but they can be a pain in the a**, although I definately loved, and love mine." Ondrea said, "I think it might just be the younger the siblings who can be a pain." Ondrea let out a little laugh, "As you can tell, I am the oldest." "Well some parents can help, others can hinder, some are just hopeless, and others you wish they could be better, and just hurt you, it really differs." Ondrea said, walking out the door. OOC- so sorry i couldnt RP, i was on Vacation ... so who should make the thread in the lake?
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Post by Dante Rose Black on Aug 27, 2005 13:51:51 GMT
"Wow so many diffrent things that can go on its like a gaint puzzel weird, I might know Aira I can't really remember at the moment hehe."
OOC: No prob i've been grounded for awhile so yeah... doesn't matter to me who starts it you can if you want, seeing as I started this one..............oh by the way love the goth looking Harry Potter Pic that rocks!"
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