The Horrors of Your Mind

[Sylph]

As Sylph's flashing green eyes met Roan's hazel ones, they filled with concern and empathy. So that's what it was; Sylph had been right, the 'Puff was having acid flashbacks - but how if she'd never been exposed to the drug before the forest? It didn't usually happen after one hit, did it? And who would carry that much acid or LSD or whatever it was around with them, and willingly 'donate' it to someone like Roan? Any junkie wouldn't part with such a sizable proportion of their stash just to harm someone else, would they? So many questions... and yet the only one that really mattered right now was how Roan could be helped. At least now she had agreed to go to the hospital wing.

"It's not a weakness," Sylph told the brown haired girl firmly but gently. "It's not like this is your fault. It sounds like there's a very sadistic demon out there in the forest, although," she added as a wry afterthought, "we already knew that. But we can help you - the nurses can. There are potions to soothe the mind and others to give you dreamless sleep, things that will help you.

"And don't put yourself down, either," Sylph continued, pulling out another of the brightly spotted handkerchiefs that littered her pockets - this one blue and yellow, dabbing gently at Roan's tear stained cheeks. "So far you've been more useful than any of us - me included - just look at what you've done!" Sylph spread her hand at the piles of amassed information. "And how many times have you faced Fenris and lived? And now you've met Mai le Rosa - I suppose you've heard the tales about her? Roan, you are a very talented witch, you've got a knack for survival - we need people like that. Now stop crying, huh?" When Roan dropped her eyes, Sylph reached out to the girl and tilted her chin back up, forcing her to look into her eyes. She wasn't sure if she should do this; she hadn't known Roan very long, but she couldn't leave her to deal with this alone.

"Oi, you," Sylph said, raising her eyebrows, her voice clear and authorataive, a voice that was light and confident, a voice that would make anyone smile and feel more like themselves. "Listen to me, this'll all got sorted, got it? All you need is some rest, a chance to give your mind a break. Now, dry those tears, and tell me what you want to do right now - not what you think you should do - what you want to do."

[-Roan-]

Roan, being the pessimist that she was, was taking this all in as best she could, and trying to look at it in a good way. She didn’t want to lie to Sylph, and agree and say yes, she wasn’t weak, when her body rebelled against that thought. The ‘Puff hadn’t considered a lot of things. She had always assumed the amount of times she had faced Fenris and the demoness’s of the school, had been out of foolishness, not something to regard with a good look. And she had never won, oh no, everytime she faced them someone had to drag her back to the hospital wing, or she left to brood and let her injuries heal themselves. But that showing her talent at a witch? Roan had never thought of that. She managed a small nod towards Sylph, a bit of relief in her face that she finally got this all out and told someone. It was like keeping a time bomb locked in your chest.

“Thanks Sylph, I don’t know what I would have done if you hadn’t come along. It probably wouldn’t have been good.” She said remorsefully. Then Roan sighed and tried to calm down a bit more. It was also good to know that she could go to the Hospital Wing, eventually. Being the bright child that she was, she forgot about the potions to help you sleep. But Roan didn’t like magical healings, so that is probably why it never came to mind. There would have to be an exception this time, there was no way the ‘Puff wanted to go through that again, no more flashbacks or hallucinations. It was probably a good idea to tell her Captain what her plan on this would be, since she had been practically ordered to.

“I don’t want to go to the Hospital Wing yet, I can live with this until past tomorrow. If I go there then I may end up lying in a hospital bed when I should be out with you all in the Graveyard. After the mission down there Ill go down and get this out of my system, I cant handle it anymore. I dealt with those pains when they were dealt to me, I don’t want to do it again and again.” She said quietly, remembering the searing in her arms. No, that wasn’t something she wanted to feel again and again, Mai was a madwoman, like Fen was a madman, she didn’t need that to remind her. Now for her plan at the moment. The smart thing to do would be for Roan to head up to bed and sleep until they had to leave the next morning, so that she would have some rest. Then she would have better aim with her spells and not be so much of a grouch. But since when has this ‘Puff ever been smart?

“As for right now, there is work to be done, if you want to see some of this, there is a lot of information that may help, and I don’t want to leave you to navigate it alone. But if you want to go to bed, that’s fine, its early and you need to get sleep before our adventure tomorrow. I have other work to do anyways, I need to finish up what I started here and organize before I go to sleep, if that ever happens.” Roan grumbled, her voice tired. Though she was feeling better about her horrors right now, there was no words that Sylph could say that would bring the light back into her eyes and make her feel like she could walk without falling over from exhaustion. That could only be brought about by a nice long sleep, and a break from this work she had assigned herself to. The brunette rubbed her eyes to wake up a bit and stifled a yawn, trying to tell her body to stop acting to tired, they werent going to sleep yet. "So what will it be Captain?"